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Monday, March 1, 2010

more circles.

I imagine knowledge sometimes... as a circle. Inside, I'm safe. Surrounded by everything I know, or think I know about... and it's all slowly expanding everyday, but there is no limit. The potential growth is infinite, and that scares me a little bit. The non-understanding of an overflowing world. Risky misadventures waiting in the dark somewhere to leap on me.  I don't pretend to know everything and never will, but in the case of an online, completely publicized blog.. I will write lil tidbits from the very center of my safety circle.  - Me.

6 comments:

chaser said...

It's true...I also see knowledge as layers, like an onion...protecting me from the forces that would in some way subjugate or harm me.

It's why I become ever more anxious as I become increasingly aware of the relative and tenuous nature of knowledge...fearing my protections are illusory...and realizing that somehow I always knew they were. How could I lie to myself like that?...How could I be so self-indulgently ignorant, even as I celebrate knowledge?

Tripp Hudgins said...

I live to read between the lines of ever radiating circles. You write. I'll read.

Anonymous said...

Hello. And Bye.

Anonymous said...

if I'm the blogger of that blog, what is the book that you recommend???

...maybe he'll understand and send a reply...

Heather Maria said...

Read... "The Power of Silence" by Carlos Castaneda. (Even though I have no idea what you're talking about... seems like it might be a good lesson for you.)

zompaq said...

I too imagine my conscious thinking mind as that little dot in the middle. And that little dot is surrounded by my unconscious mind. That part of my mind that gives me dreams, stores memories. sometimes gives me thoughts, and mostly feelings.

One day i took a drug. It's called 2ce. what happened was my unconscious mind kept messing with me. hundreds of continuous thoughts I became aware of were following every little thing i was doing. They were adapting and adding on to my mind through experiences.

There was background noises, 2nd imaginative visions, sounds, music, and random flashes of knowledge that went perfect with everything i went through.

THen i thought about my step-dad. I started feeling adrenaline. My mind turned against me. Whatever activity i was involved in got scary. Time started slowing down very rapidly. Whatever sound i was perceiving got very deep and scary. my vision got a little scarier. I would hear very loud imaginary scary sounds of large metal beams bending for a long time. Then i got up and ran to a different part of my room.

Everything got very normal. It felt like i wasnt tripping out anymore and then my thoughts followed me. Things started getting scary again and i would have to keep going to the next activity and run away from my thoughts. I felt very crazy.

I tried going to sleep but the noises kept coming. I couldnt stop daydreaming. I was tripping out very hard for 14 hours then finally fell asleep.

I woke up and felt very sane again. No more scary thoughts. But I'm just not the same anymore. My thoughts and beliefs are different now. I'm happy I am in this safe "circle" away from all the other circles in my mind that were making me crazy.

Btw sorry for leaving a blog as a comment :/ couldn't resist but to tell you some things I think of how people's minds work.

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